Haiz...still no-one see i exist in front of them but some reeacted..
Not too bad lorz...=(..
Todae jy called me and asked to pass her my reflections file and accidently the thing shot pass my face it hurts...
Then she asked if i wanted to go ntuc with her to buy some thing i was soo excited but i kept calm so i say ok have i reject u before?then she said i dunno..perharps.I was like ok soo much for that..
Then after a while i dunno y i was soo moody and it was like soo warm in my eyes i felt like crying for no ryhme of reason but i sighed mANY TIMES....then jy asked me if i'm ok i chocked out a ya..and turned back in case if i did cry..then shafiqah asked the same and i kept cool and say ya and made a smile.Not long,jy say maybe i go with xinying they all to buy the clean and clear at the ntuc and i was like.."thank u U Really made the Day for me"..=(
During netball lesson i was a little angry..bcos i still do not seemed to exist to someone cos Kemelia or cemelia was talking to jy when i and her plus xinying was eating then she started asking the others name and repeated their names again i was like so left out..wat the hell that was wat i think in my mind..forget it anyway i am just a dunk on the floor only the cleaners notice..=(
Wat so ever lor..then when i was practising with jy throwing the ball i actually imagine that was someone i hated and was like ....i shALL thro u as far as i can n never see u again.But jy to my horror her strengh like soo powerfull i m afraid of the person i hate(the ball)..then i was very angry at the moment when i ran and grabb the ball when i drop i really thought to myself how i wished that i could puntured u and sqeeze u..then i came clear to my thoughts again playing back quite normally thinking.Then jy was like quite angry to me..i think maybe she was angry bcos of my expression.haiz..nvm....
I just dun get it y m i soo unhappy today i guess theres another bad day for me tomorrow...
When we were told to throw the ball again dunno wat it called but i was standing under the scorching sun and i was like damn how could this dAY BE ANY WORST..I HATE SCORCHING SUNS!!! Especially when i was told to stand under it for several minutes..I wasn't concentrating wat the senior said and do when she made an example for the second type of throw..then i was like soo confused i asked insyrah then she ignored me then when i was about to ask xinying the senior blewed her whistle ....can't she blow it any minute after?...Argh..then i was like steaming ..soo angry..i tried to cool myself but it didn't help.I wasn't sure of the throws so i bcome as blurr as sotong..jy had to direct me wat to do and i was like the worst out of the several ppl doing the throws.The when it was the second time to throw..i was runnoing out of energy and then wow jy's powerfull strike shot again the ball bounced and i was like so scared.Then i have to run and retrieved it again where the stupid warm sun is shining i can be like otah already..when i turned back jy was correcting me on how should i react to the ball she told me to run and she throws the ball and called me to catch it then i said "but u throw so hard and i cannot catch",while i forgot if she did say anything after that or made a long face after that i wasn't happy at all.It was like a silent fight....
I tried to talk back nicely to her and she seemed to be quite angry inside but hiddened it ..she did talk to me and like a bit lively but i still think she is angry...i thought to myself and say"aiyo qian jing xiao jie pls lah.."nvm i think it would be ok after awhile...hope i really really hope that tomorow will not get any worse or........